Out of Work. Again.
Wisdom House, the interfaith program I ran at Scarritt-Bennett Center in Nashville has been closed, and once again I am without a job. I was raised to believe that you are what you earn, and when you aren’t earning you aren’t living. While I know this to be false, I also carry the echo of it in my head. So this is a harrowing time for me.
I only have two skills: writing and talking; and I have only three things I like to write and talk about: Judaism, the Bible, and spirituality. So my options for personally meaningful work are quite limited. I can, and will if I have to, apply for work at Wal-Mart, but I would rather not. I figure I can hold out for a couple of months before “Hi, welcome to Wal–Mart” becomes my new mantra. In the meantime I will try to figure out what’s next.
This means, I suspect, learning how to do more on the Internet. I can travel only so many days a month, and airport life is taking a terrible toll on me physically and emotionally. I’m writing this as I sit stranded in Philly waiting for USAir to figure out what’s wrong with the airplane that is supposed to fly me to Buffalo. Sitting here eating junk food and fantasizing about murdering screaming babies and smug airline employees is not good for the soul.
I’m thinking about creating my own Spiritual Direction training program. I did a Jewish version of this once before, and it is still going strong, though I have nothing to do with it. This new one will be spiritual but not religious. I’m also toying with the idea of creating an on-line Bible study course (Hebrew and Greek Bibles) that would focus on the wisdom of the Bible outside the confines of any institutional religious frame. And there is my One Foot Judaism effort to recast Judaism as a path of compassion. And there is Holy Rascals, my film effort, and the only one of these ideas that actually exists (www.holyrascals.com). So there is no thought that I will be board, only the ceaseless worry that I will be broke.
I’ll let you know what I end up doing. In the meantime, if you know anyone in upper management at Wal-Mart let me know.